I have a horrible tendency of not thinking things through. Not life-altering things, but most everything else. Like any project I've ever done on my own. There is always a moment (or few hours) of DEAR LORD THIS IS HORRIBLE. I can't believe I thought this was a good idea. I can't believe I thought this looked good. It can be a pretty demeaning time, however long it lasts. Over the years I've gotten better at looking at the really rough process of creation as this is just the process, take a breath, step back, sleep some, and have new thoughts about it tomorrow. It might be a form of "thrill-seeking" as I find some of the most exhilarating times in life are those few crunch hours before a deadline - it's all or nothing - phew, it feels so good. It might also be me trying to seize my self-proclaimed good idea and forgetting some of the important steps of prep: buying the right material, having enough time, having enough time to do a little trial-n-error. But then again, it's all a bunch of trial-n-error, our whole lives, every project, and some day we'll nail it so hard we'll never have to nail it again and then life gets boring.
Above is a wall I tried my hand at this past weekend for a friend's birthday. Tissue, foil, wrapping paper, streamer shards, balloons, and tape.
A few weeks of long days after a dessert of work can change perspective and force the ideas to come to the forefront of the brain. Too much free time let's the ideas flow freely but without any pressure, it's when we get busy and our time becomes precious that a few good ideas pop up above the rest and stick around.
I made this piece in January of this year, it is still my favorite thing I've made all year, and today it's helping the formulating good ideas to have a little more structure and balance.
without you, death and darkness, there is not the value of life and light.
"no one likes my pink phase" (or whatever phase) i tell myself. but everyone else has some variation of that same phrase repeating in their heads. the reality is that no one has time to think about my pink phase which gives me plenty of room to love it and them plenty of room to love their phases.
Continuously trying to create new characters to add to my collection: I stumbled on a friends photo of their garden harvest, saw a face in the vegetables, and created the above.
New York is starting to feel a little more settled, which is exciting and terrifying, but I think ultimately a good thing. Having your immediate world settled and with order allows for creativity to grow and be free. Less to bog down the mind, less excuses to make, more time thinking and working rather than being overwhelmed by figuring it out.
New season, new things.
Earlier this month I was able to swing by the Brill Building to take a little glance at a painting project by Tom Christopher and Andy Hammerstein. I was there too early to see them in action, however it was great to be able to see the work they'd been producing for the weeks prior.
The Brill Building Project is more of a social morale booster and city beautification project than anything else. Using empty storefronts in-between business occupancy not only turns an otherwise dust, tarp, tape, and debris-laden space into an interesting and beautiful scene but it also provides short term studio space to help local artists (and potentially helps the non-artist get into, appreciate, and better understand the art world). Win. Win. Win. All the way around.
For me it was wonderful to see a traditional construction site turned into a performance and installation - because who doesn't want a more beautiful, interesting city to look at? More importantly, it was fun to see an artist that I respect make a home-run for the art community - get a little inspiration and encouragement to keep putting good work into the world.
sometimes i fall into a pattern of not doing the things i want to do because i don't want to do them alone. this year has been focused on doing what i want to do whether people want to join or not, think i'm strange or not, or really have _________ opinion of me. if i want to do it, i'm going to. if you want to join me, please do.
there are so many ideas that are talked about - good ideas - that just never get put into action. this year is all about making the idea tangible and animate. create and make, make and create - and in the mean time, go to the beach as many times as possible.
sometimes, but like and if for to, ya feel me?
one of the most wonderful feelings in the world is finding the missing piece that allows and insists moving forward and letting go. a weight is lifted, the anxiety diminishes and the situation seems not only manageable but is no longer a situation. fully let go. there is freedom; summer is once again upon us.
"I shambled after as I've been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue center light pop and everybody goes "Aww!...
Then came spring, the great time of traveling, and everybody in the scattered gang was getting ready to take one trip or another." - Jack Kerouac, On The Road
it's way too cold. make it stop. give me a beach. stay warm by listening to good tunes and workin hard.
spring is soooooo close, i can feel it in my bones! and i just found a great library just steps from my home so all is mostly right in the world.
The beginning of the year is always a little rough. This year, particularly, because I decided to jump and dive deep into freelance - illustration, branding, and strategy (and building/creating whatever I can get my hands on). Resolutions haven't ever been my thing, but this year I decided to draw/create something everyday (most of which you can see at my instagram and tumblr).
This month is a little slow, and due to an unfortunate flood, I'm packing up my things and on the hunt for a different apartment. All this to say, I hope to share some exciting projects with you once I've settled into a new spot and have my studio re-built.
I have high hopes and goals of making this year the year of "doing" and making it the best and most successful year yet.
don't forget: we create our futures.
It's been a hell of a year filled with some of the best and most trying times. Keep moving forward. I took a handful of weeks to get away from the city: collect some thoughts and prepare for the upcoming year. It's going to be a good one so, drink up.
let the holiday's begin!
here's my mama's stuffing recipe, in case you're at a loss.
Stuffing: 6 servings (per loaf)
per loaf of bread (16-20 oz) add:
1/2 C oil*
3 ribs celery
1/4 t rosemary
1 t sage
1 t poultry seasoning
1 t salt
2 shakes cayenne (uhhhh. use your own judgement?)
in oil, sauté above ingredients together, mix with ripped up bread and 3/4 C water.
in 13x9 pan (will fit 1.5-2 recipes) bake at 350 for about 1 hour.
clearly, there's a lot of loose ends and suggested procedures....
*don't forget how tasty butter and duck fat are.
somewhere in the last year i became a believer in love.
1. Snoozer by Monster Rally
3. Tenuousness by Andrew Bird
4. Paz a Ti by Helado Negro
5. I Walked by Sufjan Stevens
6. Dreams Come True Girl by Cass McCombs
7. Brindo by Devendra Banhart
8. Palms by Jana Hunter
9. I want You by Bob Dylan
10. Country Boy by Johnny Cash
11. Thousand Ways by The Tallest Man On Earth
12. Heaven and Hell by William Onyeabor
13. Beyond the Sea by Monster Rally